Diis Aliter Visum

ang pagbabalik ng probinsyano

2008-03-18T10:59:00.000-07:00

im back!
sa kadugay sa panahon.. makabalik na jud ko ug blog!

sa kadtong wala pay 8 ka buwan

2007-07-03T16:09:00.000-07:00

sa kadtong wala pay 8 ka buwan mura rag wala
apan karon na mga panahon di na mada panagsa na mura rag wala!
mao ra na... mura rag wala!

forever and ever

2007-04-10T11:31:00.001-07:00

by jeanette biedermann

I think I have lost your love
After all the harm I've done
If you could give me just one more chance, babe
I'd walk a thousand miles
For your touch and your lovely smile
I'm sorry for all I have done, babe

Hearts are broken
Where do we go now?
Words unspoken
I miss you

I promise
If you come back in my life
I promise you I'll be there
'Til the end of time
Forever and ever babe
I wanna be kissed by you
Love me tender
I want it all or nothing at all
Come back
Forever and ever babe
I can't believe
You'll abandon me
Love's too deep
Take a chance on me

They don't need to see me cry
You can't hide it with a lie
It's not too late to change your mind, babe
I keep your picture beside my bed
Still remember the words you said
Can't believe what I just gave away, babe

Hearts are broken
Where do we go now?
Words unspoken
I miss you

I promise
If you come back in my life
I promise you I'll be there
'Til the end of time
Forever and ever babe
I wanna be kissed by you
Love me tender
I want it all or nothing at all
Come back
Forever and ever babe
I can't believe
You'll abandon me
Love's too deep
Take a chance on me

Ohoh
I can't believe
No no no no

I promise
If you come back in my life
I promise you I'll be there
'Til the end of time

I promise
If you come back in my life
I promise you I'll be there
'Til the end of time
Forever and ever babe
I wanna be kissed by you
Love me tender
I want it all or nothing at all
Come back
Forever and ever babe
I can't believe
You'll abandon me
Love's too deep
Take a chance on me

I can't believe

i hope another "worst" is over

2007-03-20T00:27:00.001-07:00

gubot kaau mi for the last two weeks...
ni-uli ko last friday night...
bibo kaau mi...
lahi rjud kung magkuyog mi...
i hope another "worst" is over!

in flesh....

2007-03-10T14:21:00.000-08:00

The Middle Video

The Middle lyrics - Jimmy Eat World lyrics

Jimmy Eat World Music Videos

Music Video Codes by VideoCure

song of the week

2007-03-10T13:38:00.000-08:00

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl in the middle of the ride
(over, and over)
Everything, everything will be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)

Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everthing, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts, are gonna say

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything It'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright

a love letter

2007-03-02T11:23:00.000-08:00

to my dearest,

i dont have a proper start for my letter. it has always been this way when i write you letters. love, while i am at this hazardous task my chest feels heavy for reasons beyond my comprehension. hehe... i hope you are fine. being honest with you has always been a difficult task for me. it is not that i dont care or love you, i just want to be perfect for you. i just want to tell you that there are times when i do things that you dont want me to do. sometimes i forget some of my promises to you. i really love you jeanette but the real me surfaces at times when i am most vulnerable.it's uncontrollable. it's just me. even if i have to say this a million more times, i am really sorry! love, this time ill swallow my pride and ask for your help and understanding. please..... please.... please.... please.... accept the real me. i maybe not man enough to fulfill some of my promises, i am imperfect but still i will be the one! no matter what happens i wont stop loving, understanding, listening and caring for you until the time my last breath happens. apason jud tka bisan asa pa ka jeanette pero kung di tka makit-an mangita ko ug paagi na ikaw makakita ug moduol nako. i really wish, hope, pray that we will be one! we will be one! love, wa nakoi masuwat, panahon na cguro para sugdan nako ug buhat ang ako mga gipasalig nmo.

Naghunahuna ko ug mas nindot na pagkasulti pero wa jud koi mahunahuna-an, simplehon ra ni nko love: I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!

love,
imo uyab na walwal

PS: ang ako utang dugay2 pa mabayran.... hehe...

payring skwad

2007-02-14T05:10:00.000-08:00

samtang ang uban gaselebrar sa ilang balentayns day karon. c pyang2 nag-inusara na sad. matud pa niya payring skwad day karon. bang! bang! padung nasad cguro ni ug shot2. tskk...tskk... ambut ning bataa ba. kanus-a pa kaha ni makalingkawas sa payring skwad group o nkagawas na ni wa lang mag-saba...
abangan ang susunod na kabanata.

extend mi ma'am.... 1 hour!

2007-02-13T13:18:00.001-08:00

sugod na ug log-in
ang last money isugal...
bisan dili na ganahan moduwa
daghan ang demonyo na nag cge ug galgal

bahalag wai kaon
bahalag wai ligo
bahalag wai tulog
bahalag wai bayad

bisan daghan nangasuko...
extend mi ma'am.... 1 hour!

maayo pa si juan

2007-02-13T13:12:00.000-08:00

maayo pa si juan...
kai naai giagbayan
didto sa global
silang duhan ni randell bayot nakit-an

maayo pa si kikko...
kai naai gisawsawan
ngado sa motel ni ma'am thelma
niya gikabay-an

maayo pa si randell bayot...
sa iyang lagay naay mag-cge ug kuot
sa motel japun ni ma'am thelma
sa iya pirmi mokumbayot

sa ilang tulo kinsa ang pinaka-swerte?
si juan, si kikko o ang bayot na walay diskarte?
ambut lamang kung kinsa...
basta kabalo ko gihigugma ko ni nang masing ug ni ma'am thelma!

P.S.
written out of desperation

i fell tower

2007-02-13T12:54:00.000-08:00

if i fell
id break once more

if i break
id hurt myself and more

if id hurt myself
id cry till the bleeding stops and much more

if id cry till the bleeding stops
id never bleed for somebody or someone..... furthermore....

if id never bleed
then i cease to exist!

no shirt poem

2007-02-13T12:36:00.000-08:00

in this state i could day nothing
how much more write anything

temperature did rise...
to make it reach its limit would sure be unwise

as for someone who is unwise all his life
i should have given in to start the strife

but i couldn't... i wouldn't...
i would not commit the same mistakes again

i would rather be called a coward
than to hurt someone i shared moments with

call me a coward once...
call me a coward twice...

i maybe am but
you'll surely die if you say it thrice

unsolicited

2007-02-13T11:42:00.000-08:00

sha la la la la
pinaka-una na lyrics na imo madunggan na kanta sa counting crows na mr. jones.
sai labot?
wai labot!
haaayy... ambut lamang kung asa na sad ni padulong ni ako salitype2x karon.
magsugod ta sa pinaka-unang topic: "DUDA"

hmm... naa koi gdudahan na tao karon! tskk... tskk.. yawa ning tawhana
abi nako magbag-o na, wa pa diay!! yawaa jud ba!
ayaw na lang mo pangutana kung kinsa na cya kai ang ako ra itubag ninyo kai
"ngano man? palit ka?"
bwahahhaa...... (ilad juna ug kikko ani)

ikaduha: "GUTOM"
matay! pila na ko kaadlaw gigutom da! di lang sa paborito nakong sabaw sa humba ni noy jimmy kung dli sa mga text na "i mis u" ug " i love you" gkan sa ako gimahal! haayy...

mao ra na ako matype karon oi... kapoi na sad!

the song that reflects paranoid thoughts

2007-02-13T11:26:00.000-08:00

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking the drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullaby
Joking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
I'm Mr. Brightside

gikapoy

2007-01-30T09:43:00.000-08:00

still

when everything seem to be right
still something goes wrong...

when this relationship seem to be good
still somebody butts in and messes with us.

if i only have clones i would finish all of you in a single moment
still i am only one...

if i had the power to do everything i want in a flash,
still ill do them the hard way for you to see what im worth.

libog na sad

2007-01-19T11:25:00.000-08:00

samtang gasuwat ko ani nga entry gibalikbalik na nako ug paminaw aning kanta sa yellowcard na "my only one". ambut lang sad kung unsai naa aning kantaha ngano manlimbawt man ako balahibo kung makadungog ko. basin cguro naka-relate ko. ang ako hinigugmang uyab ni.angkon karon "na-attract" daw cya ug lain. heheh... sakita oi! kafaet bya aning kinabuhi.a awa naglisud hinuon ko ug ka2log, init kaau ako liog mura ko ug kahilantanon. y*wa kaau ning sitwasyona ba. naa pa koi laing problema pero sikreto sa na. ako sa sulbaron bag-o nako isuwat. clue lang ha kung di gani ni nako masulbad ning problema-a gudbye cebu, gudbye isabel na jud ko... basin hangtud sa hangtud. di ko magpakamatay ha. basin ikyasan nsad ni nako! ataya mao ra man cguro nai butang na maau kaau ko, kanang ikyas2x ug problema. hala, hapit na sinulog pero wa mai lami!

another gap

2007-01-06T13:21:00.001-08:00

another gap in my judgement,
i once again failed.
a single mistake in a single moment,
a lifetime of shame awaits.

1 set.... 2 days delayed

2007-01-06T13:17:00.000-08:00

we met...
we played...
we trashtalked...
1 set....
1 day delay...

we met again...
we played once more....
we got trashtalked...
1 set
1 day delay...

would we ever get there?
or would we forever stay at this level?

confusion or sheer stupidity?

2007-01-06T13:08:00.000-08:00

naa na pud ko aning storya na wai klaro. naay importante na tao sa ako kinabuhi na naglibog kung kinsa iya pili-on, ako ba o kad2ng iya katrabaho. kung ako lang ang pabut-on ako na na gipabarang lakiha. yawaa pud ani ako uyab oi. di man mahimutang! tskkk...tskk... nagtuo cguro ni cya na bisnan pa ug inlab ko ani niya di nako cya biyaan. hapit nko mapuno! balik2 na lang pirmi ang storya yawaa! bugo na man cguro ko ngano di ko kasabot. unsa man jud pasabot ani ba? sa tinuoray lang inlababo jud kaau ko ani niya, sa iyang bahin niangkon na 55% ra daw iya gugma nako. di ko makabasol ana kai dako ako sala ani niya sa una. mao ba kaha ni ang rason ngano nag-ingana cya o buang lang jud cya. ipabarang jud to nako lakiha ba!

i should have waited

2006-12-19T11:53:00.000-08:00

i should have waited.
look where i am today?
i am here but i am of no significance
i am present but of no use.

i should have been faithful.
look who i am with?
i am not without accolades but i am very lonely
i am singing to my most cheerful voice when in fact i am dry within.

i am doomed.
look at me now!
do you still recognize who am i?
do you know i am bleeding! help!

i should have waited!

uli nko ugma

2006-12-19T11:38:00.000-08:00

kaulion ko na dili...usa ra man unta ang rason ngano di ko mouli pero grabe jud kaau modulot. haay... pastilan jud ning mga sitwasyon na ako masudlan ba. gubot pas lukot!
kanus-a man ko motagam ba. haayy... na-sense na nako na hapit nasad ko
"mag-hibernate" da pero karon murag forever hibernate na ni! ambut lang asa ko puniton ani karon!

RIP http://www.friendster.com/saktoskaon

2006-12-13T23:36:00.000-08:00

ako na gi-cancel ang friendster account nako. tungod sa ako kawalwal ako kini gi-delete. nagmahay man ko gamay apan nalipay usab ako kai maka-concentrate nako sa dota... IPaD dota players here i come!

PS:
sa tinuoray lang sakit sad diay mawad-an ug friendster oi labi na kung ikaw rasad ang rason ngano nawala.

MORAL LESSON:
kung mo-delete ka ug friendster account cguradua na walay internet ang cafe na imo adtuan.

REAL MORAL LESSON:
Ayaw jud tuyua na mawala ang usa ka butang sa imo kinabuhi! biya-i lang gud nya balikbaliki panagsa!

warning sa mga laki!

2006-12-10T09:31:00.000-08:00

kanta para sa mga laki na wai au!

2006-12-10T08:45:00.000-08:00

decipi

2006-12-06T11:55:00.000-08:00

innocence is merely a cover,
when thorns are sought it only presents the flower
i am a fool to think that your eyes dont decieve
what a shame for i trusted you with my whole.

-----

2006-12-04T03:50:00.000-08:00

....the night might pass me by, but i'll never cry!

gaba

2006-11-15T11:33:00.000-08:00

mao na ni epekto sa mga winalwal nako na binuhatan
nakakita na unta ug arang2 na relasyon nagbinuang pa jud ataya kaau nako oi
wa na ba gyud diay ni kaundgan ang ako kabuang? yawaa! asa man ko nakakuha aning batasana ba? kayata kung naa moi ikatamba.. txt lang sa 09219798506

total surrender

2006-10-11T15:14:00.000-07:00

will i follow you in total surrender?
why should i?
you know its difficult for me...
is it really i?

totus tuus

2006-10-11T15:07:00.000-07:00

when there was me and you

2006-10-10T05:59:00.000-07:00

by Katherine

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's

Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

havin' a hard tym being human..

2006-10-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

emotions keep on pouring...
my simple, messy life is getting complicated yet im liking it...
my heart of stone changed...
somebody gave it flesh...
somebody pumped blood in it...
somebody made my heart "feel" once again
that being thawed my frost infested mind...
my once stagnant brain is now fully operational...
i know its hard...
but i want to be human for her!

*made before oct. 6 pero still applicable...

have you ever felt vampiric?

2006-10-08T22:06:00.000-07:00

a gap in my judgement...
a void in my heart..
dark clouds help as i hide myself..
lies.... lies.... i flush with shame!
there is no slumber for me at night,
the day offers no comfort at all.
i live on pretense emotions
wait... i do not live,
i merely exist.
where do i go from here?
heaven offers no refuge
and hell is no sanctuary.
earth is no purgatory...
i belong nowhere...
was i really meant to live..
or merely to exist?

hush

2006-10-07T01:20:00.000-07:00

noise... turn up the volume!
laughter... breaking my eardrum.
tears... im drowning in it
pain... better off than dead
hush.. hush... i think its what she said

seemingly there....but still nowhere

2006-10-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

in the deepest recesses of my thoughts i was there...
my greatest joy was at hand... or so i thought?!
i gave her my soul to the bare...
but look at the damage it brought...

i try to think not of dark imaginings
but still faint traces of them appear.
did i really love you from the beginning?
Nay, but still my love is sincere...

how could i have been so blind not to see...
the darkness of my plight...
but still my life belongs to me...
blue skies, i plead... come on the first crack of light!

is it that i am effortless?
or is it the absence of faith?
either way i must confess...
i could wait... i would really wait

para kang c***re

2006-10-06T13:14:00.000-07:00

pare, void!
wa koi mana pare...
stun bai!
sori... di makita ni ngitngit....

wrath zeus!
atay! wa namatay...
mag-vanguard ko part?!
cge! para gahi ka pareha nako...

bai, push nata!
ayaw sa bai... mag-aegis sa ko...
tabang sa tunga cuats!
sa ubos ra ko!

boss... bangaa aning cuatre noh?!
mao jud! 100 imo gi bayranan noob (randyll)
dakua oi! pero cge lang pildi man si cuatre...
bossing: hahaha... ginansiya na sad ko!

diis aliter visum

2006-10-06T11:42:00.000-07:00

we should have been happy...
the gods think otherwise.

we should be right beside each other...
the gods think otherwise.

we should have not listened to others....
the gods think otherwise.

the gods should control my life....
for once I THINK OTHERWISE!!!!

kinopya gikan ni auggie fillart(1980-2002)

2006-10-06T02:02:00.000-07:00

i am...you are...

i am superman
you are my kryptonite
i am darkness
you are my light
i am abel
you are my cain
i am romeo
you are my poison
i am God
you are nothing
exit my mind
exit my heart
exit my soul
i dont need you...
you muthafuckin' whore

seemingly there...

2006-10-05T15:39:00.000-07:00

in the deepest recesses of my thoughts i was there...
my greatest joy was at hand... or so i thought?!
i gave her my soul to the bare...
but look at the damage it brought...

how could i have been so blind not to see...
the darkness of my plight...
but still my life belongs to me...
blue skies, i plead... come on the first crack of light!

diis aliter visum

2006-10-05T15:33:00.000-07:00

the gods decided otherwise!